I think one of the perpetual questions a writer asks is will anyone really want to read this? I often find myself wondering if anyone else cares even a bit about the things I write about. I have yet to find some perfect way to know what the world (or even my corner of it) wants to read, so I fall back on writing to myself–I like reading this kind of thing and I’ll trust that others do too.
So we have this post.
I love reading about other writers’ writing processes, so I’m going to take a
little long post to talk about my writing desk.
When I finished writing Catania’s Forest close to this time last year, I was left with the inevitable question of what to write next. The stories come and go so fast!
There was a quaint little story I had left lying around half-written called Blue Eyes Eastward. I picked it up again and decided to finish writing it before anything else. I got a new story idea partway through (Anchored, my pirate story) and started plotting it, but Blue Eyes was still a priority.
Well, then I had a setback, that started when I realized my villainess was sadly shallow. In the end I realized I didn’t like the themes of my story at all, I was doing things I had seen other authors do and hated, and I needed to consider dropping it. So that story died–I killed it. And man! was that hard. When I look back on it, I don’t feel much for that story, but at the time it was a very hard decision to make. As Anchored was still deciding what it wanted to be and how many characters would live through it, I was not ready to start writing it (still not!). So there was a lull.
And into that lull came “Nieo and Star”, the story I’m currently writing. And guys, I love this story so much! There literally aren’t humans in this story, it’s straight fantasy creatures, and my imagination is. in. heaven. While Cat’s Forest was certainly fantasy, I was very focused on making it feel real and it’s darker than what I usually write (I know that some of you will find it amusing that I call Cat’s Forest dark, but it’s dark for me!). And so as Anchored isn’t typical fantasy and all the important characters are human, and I’ve been toying around with some sci-fi lately, this story is just perfectly timed! It feels so, so good to get back to good ol’ classic Medieval fantasy and remember why it’s my favorite genre.
But, of course, it isn’t all peaches and rainbows through and through. While this has been a pretty peaceful stage in my writing with minimal writer’s block, it’s also lead me to think about being a writer more than usual. This story feels unique. It’s also very, very me. It’s been a long time since I wrote something so fresh off my imagination. It’s hard to put into words, but this story feels personal. Which means it’s more fun to write, but it’s really scary! I feel like I’m slicing a piece off my heart and pasting it to a page.
And hence: the inevitable question. Does anyone want this stuff besides me?
And I don’t really have an answer. Would people like Nieo and Star? Would anyone read it? I don’t know. But I’m writing it anyway, and I’m writing it the way my imagination wants it, in hopes that someone else is like me, and someone else likes to read such things.
Anyway, I hope this post didn’t feel too down-in-the-dumps and someone found it interesting. If anything, it was interesting to write! Happy Monday!!