So, when I posted on Valentine’s Day I decided I wanted to end my post with a Bible verse. And I didn’t want to do the typical first-Corinthians-thirteen-thing. I mean, those verses are great, but everybody uses them!
And something in me wanted to be unique. Maybe it’s because I never “fit in” when I was little(r), and so I have a problem with it now. I mean, I went years without a TV in my house, I didn’t play the popular video-games, I didn’t watch the popular movies, I didn’t wear the popular cloths, etc. So I went unique. I picked kind of randomly, but that made me think.
“My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.” -John 15:12
I have been praying recently that God would give me HIS heart, and help me love as HE loved me. I realized recently what this means–the extent of what I was asking HIM. I realized it was probably one of the most risky things I’ve ever done. But I still do it. I can’t say why. Probably because I want to love. I just want to.
When told to ask for anything, Solomon asked for wisdom. I started wondering what I would ask for, if I was given that choice. I decided I’d ask for HIS heart–HIS love.
I have this “thing” with love. Probably because I gave up on the whole wisdom-thing a long time ago. Probably because I know if I love, it will motivate me to do what I can–which might not be much, but I know it’s a whole lot more when I’m motivated by something.
Loving is dangerous. Begging to be able to love like crazy is reckless. And I don’t even care. I get defiant about love. I say “I don’t care” a lot. So maybe I don’t.
I honestly don’t know why I have this love “thing”–I don’t know where it came from. But I want to love anyway. I just do.
This probably sounds crazy, but I don’t even care!